Wow. It's cold outside.
Where should I start today? Well, I'm really only writing this because I have nothing better to do, considering my first Chem lab was today and we only talked about safety and the like, which took all of 20 minutes of what would be a normal 3-hr lab. So now I have an additional 2 1/2 hrs on top of my regular 3 hr break before my last class of the day at 230p. I think I might watch a couple more episodes of Shining Inheritance, eat some food, and probably squeeze a nap somewhere in there. I don't really remember where I was going with my last post, so maybe I'll finish that at another time. Who knows.
As I was looking at my planner last night, I realized how organized I am this semester. I haven't forgotten to do any homework or readings, and I actually have remembered to read them ahead of time, meaning more than the day before it's due. I feel proud of myself for having achieved this feat. After 3 semesters at college, I have finally discovered how to handle my classes. Better late than never, I presume.
Also last night, I went to a friend's house for our weekly life group. Normally I go to the one on Sunday night, but I've decided that I'm going to go to the Monday night one this entire semester. I think it's a way of me committing myself to something I should have been doing before, although I always went to the other one. When I arrived, I found that I was the only one who showed up, and that this was how it normally was. This led me to feel a little disappointment, maybe because I didn't get to socialize with my friends, but mostly I think because of the fact that nobody comes to this meeting yet the leader still waits for people to show up, if only to have a short discussion with one person. He asked me what I would like to talk about this semester, and at first I didn't have any ideas. And then they just came out of nowhere. I'd like to talk about trust; putting it not only in God but also in other people, which is something he and I decided had been lacking in our close community of friends. I then began to wonder why it's so hard to trust. Even after thinking about it, I still don't have an answer, and probably won't have a solid one for a long while. I've always wondered why it's so hard for some people to trust others. Of course it has to do with what they've experienced, but shouldn't every new person you meet be given a chance to have your trust put in them? Nobody is the same, therefore everybody should be given an equal chance at 'winning' your trust, right? Why is it human nature to be suspicious of others? People constantly put up 'walls' that are so thick it's almost impossible to break through, myself included. I guess I'll have to dig deeper into myself to answer this question.
I believe that's all I can write for now.
Where should I start today? Well, I'm really only writing this because I have nothing better to do, considering my first Chem lab was today and we only talked about safety and the like, which took all of 20 minutes of what would be a normal 3-hr lab. So now I have an additional 2 1/2 hrs on top of my regular 3 hr break before my last class of the day at 230p. I think I might watch a couple more episodes of Shining Inheritance, eat some food, and probably squeeze a nap somewhere in there. I don't really remember where I was going with my last post, so maybe I'll finish that at another time. Who knows.
As I was looking at my planner last night, I realized how organized I am this semester. I haven't forgotten to do any homework or readings, and I actually have remembered to read them ahead of time, meaning more than the day before it's due. I feel proud of myself for having achieved this feat. After 3 semesters at college, I have finally discovered how to handle my classes. Better late than never, I presume.
Also last night, I went to a friend's house for our weekly life group. Normally I go to the one on Sunday night, but I've decided that I'm going to go to the Monday night one this entire semester. I think it's a way of me committing myself to something I should have been doing before, although I always went to the other one. When I arrived, I found that I was the only one who showed up, and that this was how it normally was. This led me to feel a little disappointment, maybe because I didn't get to socialize with my friends, but mostly I think because of the fact that nobody comes to this meeting yet the leader still waits for people to show up, if only to have a short discussion with one person. He asked me what I would like to talk about this semester, and at first I didn't have any ideas. And then they just came out of nowhere. I'd like to talk about trust; putting it not only in God but also in other people, which is something he and I decided had been lacking in our close community of friends. I then began to wonder why it's so hard to trust. Even after thinking about it, I still don't have an answer, and probably won't have a solid one for a long while. I've always wondered why it's so hard for some people to trust others. Of course it has to do with what they've experienced, but shouldn't every new person you meet be given a chance to have your trust put in them? Nobody is the same, therefore everybody should be given an equal chance at 'winning' your trust, right? Why is it human nature to be suspicious of others? People constantly put up 'walls' that are so thick it's almost impossible to break through, myself included. I guess I'll have to dig deeper into myself to answer this question.
I believe that's all I can write for now.
